Barb always goes above and beyond to help with medication. I had a very sore throat from extubation, and she messaged the doctor about the possibility of getting throat spray. Barb always sought me out for my medication dosing time; she was also interested in understanding what brought me here. I have never been in this situation before and I explained I have had many losses and emotional stressors.

In January 2020, I lost my mom to unexpected COVID. This is an ongoing grieving process. I am at the point that I cry a lot less and laugh more. In 2022, I lost my daughter to suicide. She would be 30 on 6/7/26. I was not able to navigate this loss very well at all. I took 1 year off from life and started Prozac. I stayed on the medication at the maximum dose for 2 years and then stopped without telling my family or my doctor. Without any of my supporting medication, I was spiraling without conception of my decline.

In November, my husband had been dealing with some serious back pain, which caused him to be extremely grumpy and yell hurtful things at all of us in our home. It was “the hair that broke the camel’s back”. I had spontaneously made up my mind to teach him the value I have in his life because I felt unvalued at all. I took 8 tablets of Baclofen and ½ pen needle of long-acting insulin; the Baclofen caused me to go into respiratory arrest. Barbara offered me some great insights, and I am grateful.